Well, its about time.
It's about time I update this thing. Things went well up to about two weeks before the scheduled meeting. Just at the point I was almost convinced we might actually meet up, she disappeared. But did leave an email a week later telling me not to expect her. Since that time she has read the few emails I've left, but is still in hiding.
I know what happened, and should know better because she's used this tactic several times before. Things were great, emailing, calling daily. She gradually asked me more about family life which should have been a red flag. Whenever she goes there, its to help build up her wall. When she gets enough information, the wall is finished and she's gone. I think its her way of judging if there still might be a chance I'd leave them. When she doesn't get that feeling - she's done. For now anyway.
I know what happened, and should know better because she's used this tactic several times before. Things were great, emailing, calling daily. She gradually asked me more about family life which should have been a red flag. Whenever she goes there, its to help build up her wall. When she gets enough information, the wall is finished and she's gone. I think its her way of judging if there still might be a chance I'd leave them. When she doesn't get that feeling - she's done. For now anyway.
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How are you feeling about this? Were you happy to be talking again, etc?
Oh yeah. But as always in the past, I was always waiting for 'the day' when she disappears to happen. Seems the nicer things are, the sooner she leaves again. This last time was different in that she allowed herself to get really close, for a really long time.
I don't understand why you keep putting yourself through this and keeping your life on hold instead of moving on.
I guess I don't feel I'm really putting myself through anything (anymore), and that my life isn't on hold.
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