Don't Know Why.
I don't know why I'm surprised it's been almost two months since I last posted. Since last post we've talked and emailed many times - and just when I thought she'd stick around - she vanished. She hasn't checked in since mid-December. Not even hiding - she's stayed away completely. Of course this isn't the longest she's been away totally, but as always I feel this time is for good.
One of the comments left on the last post asked how long its been since we've seen each other. That was August '06, for about an hour. Almost a year and half. The time before that was almost a year. During that period, we've arranged to meet about a handfull of times, with her backing out each time. As she puts it - seeing me for a day just brings on months of depression afterwards. Of course my suggestion was to not wait so long between times we meet up, but she didn't see my logic. lol. Oh well.
I miss her terribly. Most times I feel I can handle her being gone for good - that is, until I realize that means I will NEVER hold her again. Then it hurts. Real bad.
One of the comments left on the last post asked how long its been since we've seen each other. That was August '06, for about an hour. Almost a year and half. The time before that was almost a year. During that period, we've arranged to meet about a handfull of times, with her backing out each time. As she puts it - seeing me for a day just brings on months of depression afterwards. Of course my suggestion was to not wait so long between times we meet up, but she didn't see my logic. lol. Oh well.
I miss her terribly. Most times I feel I can handle her being gone for good - that is, until I realize that means I will NEVER hold her again. Then it hurts. Real bad.
posted by do_in_it_2 | 8:57 PM
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I've finally updated the subtitle to this blog to reflect that its been over six years now. Six years and 5 months to be exact.
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