Bad Day

I feel like this is going to be a bad day for me. I woke up dreaming about Sara. Nothing erotic which is fortunate because the dream left me missing her badly enough. I'm afaid I'm going to try to call her today. And what sucks is that Thursdays are always the day she is home, or at least doesn't have places she has to get her kids too. What that means is that if I call, she'll be there. I already showed signs of breaking yesterday as I drove home from work. No particularly special song came up on the radio, I wasn't even thinking about her, but out of the blue I recalled our last telephone conversation and heard her crying in my head. My eyes immediately filled with tears. At first I wanted to allow myself to cry but I was afraid it would just bring on more aches. I shook it off and switch radio stations.

I really need a diversion today. This is when a hook-up would help immensely.