Feel Bad and Stubborn.

As bad as I feel for upsetting her, I don't feel bad for what I said. And I'm actually shocked that what I said upset her so much. Nevermind that 6 days after our last meeting she sent me birthday wishes via email. Nevermind she then mentioned in another email how hard it is not to ask me to call her. I didn't even bring THAT up. I only suggested that her later email (almost 2 weeks later)requesting me to write her an erotic story was her 'coming back'. Not me breaking a promise. So, is she upset enough to stay away 30 days? Or more? I don't think so. I'm guessing after a few days the anger will subside and she'll be back to fighting with herself to not check for email. Problem is, there will be some waiting for her. I never promised I'd stay away as I did last time. I'm still pissed she took such a huge step backwards. And my stubborness has kicked in fulltime. Yes, I've taken a huge step backwards as well as a result of this. What's in the email? A specific time and place to get together.

Oh, one more obstacle for her. The following weekend I will be gigging at a festival that she and her family have gone to the last 3 years. And whether she goes or not isn't her choice. It has always been at the suggestion of her husband.