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Well I've started to post several times these past two weeks, but just either couldn't come to grips with how I'm feeling, or I didn't feel I had anything interesting to say. Ditto today. I do know I'm growing impatient, scratch that, I've grown impatient and I want to hear something from Sara soon. But I also don't really have any expectations that I will hear from her. Which quite possibly could mean that I intend to contact her. But I don't. At least not unless I can offer her what she wants from me. But I feel she might regret (slightly) drawing that line. Is she waiting for me to contact her, and in turn, give her a way out of her ultimatum? Or is that just wishful thinking. Probably wishful thinking, but remember, there really isn't anything I've haven't (eventually) been proven right about her.

So you can see, I'm thoroughly confused as to where I'm at. And what I intend to do. Or not do.