On The Phone

Sara called me today. A wonderful hour long conversation about everything. Walls down, but still on the cautious side. Yes, she does believe the reason she keeps coming back is to hear how much I still love her. And she said she can never hear that enough times. We talked about the highs and lows of our relationship, and she took full blame for most of our lows. And that her battle with guilt had alot to do with that. A little more than a week ago she was in a major car accident, but escaped without injury. She said it woke her up the appreciation of what she has now. And that even included me. Immediately after the accident, her first response was to call me, but didn't. Later she was glad she didn't have to worry about deleting my number off her cellphone and worrying about it showing up on the her bill. Yet another battle with her guilt. After passing on my request to call me yesterday, she decided to do so on her own today. And now I'm sure she's battling guilt again - but probably with a huge smile on her face. Of course, not as big as the smile I still have etched in my face.

I don't expect her to stay around long, but I'm certain she likes it here right now, and wants to appreciate it awhile longer.