Weekend

Sara checked in over the weekend, but didn't want me to know so she remains hidden for now. It seems this happens when a special day is coming up, which is odd because of how she handles those days with respect to me. I guess its possible she just wanted to know I haven't forgotten about her, and by seeing all the emails I've left her did just that. She got her reaffirmation and will get back on track. Only time will tell.

In one of those emails, I told her I made a promise to myself not to do anything for Valentine's Day. No cards, gifts, phone calls, emails. Nothing. But unfortunately for her, I made the promise to myself - and I do tend to break those occasionally. If I really felt I could keep it, I would have promised her instead.

If she doesn't come back, chances are I could keep that promise. But if she continues to snoop around for awhile I almost feel compelled to do something because I know she'll be looking for something. I don't want to disappoint her. But either way I will disappoint her. Either I break my promise and send something, or I keep my promise and she gets nothing.